Done got caught up in it

Americas Best Dance Crew
Originally uploaded by The Paper Doll

So...I don't really like MTV, no video's, too much reality TV, dumbass shows. But...I love dance. I love dance shows, and I love dance competitions. Little known fact, when I was a little girl I wanted to grow up to be a Solid Gold Dancer (look it up kid, it was in the 80's). So I was flipping through channels and this caught my eye. Now, I can't wait until it gets started.
I'm rooting for BreakSk8 and Fish and Chicks because I didn't get to see the whole audition process. I do plan on watching the series though so...yay! Another time sink.

Check it out here

Lipglass as far as the eye can see

as far as the eye can see
Originally uploaded by The Paper Doll

Continuing on a theme of updating flickr groups, I've taken pictures of my makeup collection. Slowly but steadily I'm catching up on loose bits and unfinished projects that I left adrift in the no-man's land of my never ending project list. Sometimes I wonder why I take on as many projects as I do. Fear of boredom perhaps?

Two nights ago I went out with my friend Grace. Going out with Grace can be a hit or miss kind of thing. Some nighs are amazing...some are the stuff of nightmares. Sat. night was a bit of both. Here's a bit of a timeline.

7pm. clocked out at work
9pm. headed to Grace's place
10pm. left Grace's (after a change of clothing) to pick up another party member
11pm. Get to bar
12am. meet J @ bar
12:30am Drop J off at Outback
12:45am get pulled over
1:15am get back to bar
2:15am watch huge bar brawl (don't participate)
2:30am get in line for after hours dance club/bar
2:45am get humped on dance floor by beautiful woman (ok not really humped, but really, that kind of dancing isn't far off)
4:15am finally manage to round everyone up into the car
4:30am drop everyone off
5am finally get home.
6am sleep.

10am get up and get ready to go to work


Times are approximate. Sometimes being the only person in the group who doesn't drink can be a pain in the ass. I'm always the DD. Have you ever tried to get more than 2 drunken people to agree on anything? It's like herding cats.

So yeah....I got pulled over. I was trying to go to Taco Bell before getting back to the bar to babysit and I was at a traffic light, in the left turn lane. The left turn light was red but the straight light had the green. The roads are practically empty and the light is taking ForEvAr to change. I'd been sitting there for 2 minutes when I'd given up on it ever changing. So I do the stupid thing...I make a left on red. GENIUS!

As soon as I pull into the TB parking lot...lights. I swear I have NO idea where this cop came from. He must have dropped down from the trees or something. He approaches the window (did I mention I'm not driving my car? Yeah, I'm not driving my car.) and says "What could have possessed you to make a left turn on red?" My reply...to state the obvious of course. "Idiocy" He sympathised with the timing of the light and I got off with a warning. He kind of laughed at me actually. At one point he asked my ethnicity. As a former resident of the Bronx and a minority I can tell you that that question struck no small amount of fear into my heart..

I think I managed to fit at least 5 nights into that one night. I'm good. I don't think I need to go out again any time soon.

8years+1kid

8years+1kid
Originally uploaded by The Paper Doll

Wowee zowee.

I was looking at this person's recent photostream on flickr and admiring her wedding gown choices when I remembered a challenge from one of my flickr groups. the Solidarity League of Creative Women Distracted by ooooh! Shiny! Something about putting your wedding gown on again and taking a photo. Mind you this could have been about a year ago but I finally got around to it. Did I mention that this is a perfect group for me? So here I am, 8+ years of marriage and one kid later and the thing still fits. Ok so I can't raise my arms up over my head in it, but there's no guarantee that I could do that before so...yeah.

I love this dress. It's simple, elegant, and it was...rather pricey. Considering that I have no intention of ever doing that whole getting married thing again, it is worth it. Only my husband could get a picture of me looking this happy or relaxed. Another cool thing about this shot, I'm standing in our very own home. Not a rental, a house, with our names on the mortgage. Tres cool.

reading

Finished "Eat, Pray, Love" . It was good enough for me to actually read the introduction and end notes, which I rarely do. Just joined www.goodreads.com at the invitation of a friend. I'm not sure what it's about other than the ability to brag about how much and what you've read but hey, books. I love 'em. I hope that site will help when I'm stumped for a good read.

Today is the first day in about two weeks that I've had the house to myself in the mornings like I used to. It's rather nice. I got Em ready for school and then went back to bed and slept 'till 11am. Didn't get out of bed 'til 12. Horribly lazy I know, but I've been feeling sickly lately and it's exactly what I needed. Must be off to upload pictures to flickr.

Wha Happah?

For reasons that are beyond my technical grasp I can't access my old blogs. That's ok, I can't imagine anything I had to say was really THAT important.

So It's a relatively new year, I'm headed into 30. That's supposed to be a big deal. I have surgery on my innards scheduled for Feb 11Th so I must be getting old. Bits are starting to fall apart. I'm in the middle of reading "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. The first third was fabulous, the second third peppered with waaayyy too much new age yoga bits for my comfort. I'll probably get the the third and final third tonight.

I suppose I have difficulty with the whole yoga, new age thing because of all the transcendental talk. I'm trying to fit it into my whole Christian view of the world. This year has been a big challenge for my Christian tinted world view. I've been re-evaluating. I still am. I'm not sure I'm ready to put my opinions/feelings/views of that into words yet. It's frustrating and confusing and difficult. Where do Science and Faith meet? Is there even such an intersection of the two? Where and how do I fit other people's world/faith views into mine without either a) dismissing them out of hand in an annoying, patronizing way or b) losing my own view/grasp of faith? Better to be full of questions and seeking than complacent and stagnant in my faith though.

Emily is doing amazingly. Swimmingly. Beautifully.

We're thinking about having another child. For me this is nothing short of earth shattering considering how anti other child I was feeling. The postpartum after Em was devastating. To even consider going through it again is nothing short of foolhardy and yet here I am, contemplating another child. I want a little boy. One that looks like my husband. I also want my sanity. Perhaps the two won't go hand and hand. This time though, we'll get a nanny. Which means we'll have to finally finish the attic and the guest room additions. We'll be out of debt as of next December. It would be a good thing. I hope anyway.

As of March '08 I'll have been working at MAC for a year. That would make all of 2 jobs that I've managed to keep for a year in my entire life. I must love it. The first I hated but stuck it out just to be stubborn. It almost killed me. Literally. I need to get started on my Prod. Spec. project because it's due Feb. 4Th. I'm a bit excited but wary at the same time. Last time they all but promised me the position and Grace got it. Of course she got it for good reasons, her project was way better than mine and she had the hours to get the job done. It only made sense. I was still devastated. This time they're saying that I'm a shoe in but they won't give me the hours needed to get all the work done in a timely manner. This makes NO sense whatsoever. We'll see. I'm not getting my hopes up. Ok I lie, I'm getting some hopes up, but I won't be caught unawares.