Wha Happah?

For reasons that are beyond my technical grasp I can't access my old blogs. That's ok, I can't imagine anything I had to say was really THAT important.

So It's a relatively new year, I'm headed into 30. That's supposed to be a big deal. I have surgery on my innards scheduled for Feb 11Th so I must be getting old. Bits are starting to fall apart. I'm in the middle of reading "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. The first third was fabulous, the second third peppered with waaayyy too much new age yoga bits for my comfort. I'll probably get the the third and final third tonight.

I suppose I have difficulty with the whole yoga, new age thing because of all the transcendental talk. I'm trying to fit it into my whole Christian view of the world. This year has been a big challenge for my Christian tinted world view. I've been re-evaluating. I still am. I'm not sure I'm ready to put my opinions/feelings/views of that into words yet. It's frustrating and confusing and difficult. Where do Science and Faith meet? Is there even such an intersection of the two? Where and how do I fit other people's world/faith views into mine without either a) dismissing them out of hand in an annoying, patronizing way or b) losing my own view/grasp of faith? Better to be full of questions and seeking than complacent and stagnant in my faith though.

Emily is doing amazingly. Swimmingly. Beautifully.

We're thinking about having another child. For me this is nothing short of earth shattering considering how anti other child I was feeling. The postpartum after Em was devastating. To even consider going through it again is nothing short of foolhardy and yet here I am, contemplating another child. I want a little boy. One that looks like my husband. I also want my sanity. Perhaps the two won't go hand and hand. This time though, we'll get a nanny. Which means we'll have to finally finish the attic and the guest room additions. We'll be out of debt as of next December. It would be a good thing. I hope anyway.

As of March '08 I'll have been working at MAC for a year. That would make all of 2 jobs that I've managed to keep for a year in my entire life. I must love it. The first I hated but stuck it out just to be stubborn. It almost killed me. Literally. I need to get started on my Prod. Spec. project because it's due Feb. 4Th. I'm a bit excited but wary at the same time. Last time they all but promised me the position and Grace got it. Of course she got it for good reasons, her project was way better than mine and she had the hours to get the job done. It only made sense. I was still devastated. This time they're saying that I'm a shoe in but they won't give me the hours needed to get all the work done in a timely manner. This makes NO sense whatsoever. We'll see. I'm not getting my hopes up. Ok I lie, I'm getting some hopes up, but I won't be caught unawares.