PREGNANT!

I had forgotten what it was like to be pregnant. Actually I hadn't, I was just hoping it would be different. It's not. The only difference this time is that I'm not absolutely petrified. I'm trying to take the time to enjoy this pregnancy, but there's really not much to enjoy at this point. Mostly it's just being queasy when I'm not actually being ill. The worst part so far has been the withdrawal from Effexxor. Being that I have OCD, Anxiety issues and Depression, that's been my drug of choice for over 3 years to keep the madness at bay. I'd heard that the withdrawal alone could send you over the edge, but I had no idea. That combined with hormone induced random sobbing and vomiting makes this particular pregnant woman want to subject herself to a medically induced coma.

So I'm entering my 8th week, when the books and Dr.'s start saying it's ok to tell people your pregnant. I still feel nervous about it because...it's so early! Right now I'm walking around with something the approximate size of a Fava bean with a heartbeat just hanging out in my innards. We've had the first sonogram (which was so ridiculously exciting and humbling that of course I almost cried with joy...hell I'll cry at anything these days). So far the highlights of this pregnancy have been as follows:
8.15.09: Declare pride at not having vomited at all during pregnancy so far. Not 2 minutes later, I'm hanging my head over the toilet doing exactly that. That'll show me.
8.16.09: Still at it
8.17.09: Take Em to school for her Open House and nearly sob at finding her name on her class list, realizing that my first baby is in second grade. Find out what triggered the vomit fest. Plan on avoiding it like the plague.
8.18.09: First pregnant lady blog entry.

Goals for today:
Not vomit
Laundry
First Day of School Prep
Not Vomit.